Every little thing.

As I stare out of my bedroom window and gaze upon the stars above me, I cannot help but be trapped by the thoughts of you. The way you smile and how it makes my heart flutter every time. I listened to that song over and over hoping that maybe if I were able to interpret it the way you did, it will somehow give me a better vision of who you are.

But, I know this part all too well. There's a part of me that wants to be close to you. And then, there's this part that doesn't want anything to do with you.

The thing is I'm scared. I'm a coward when it comes to things like this because like the song goes, "It's a big enough umbrella but its always me who ends up getting wet.". 

Every little thing that you do give me thoughts that lead me into believing that there is indeed forever and that you just may happen to be my prince. But I'm much too scared that I'm setting up myself for a big, messy, and complicated trap. And in the end, I'll be the one hurting and picking up the pieces of  my fragile heart that is broken again.